I'm trying to upload a vlog, but blogger isn't cooperating, so I may end up just making a youtube account (which I don't wanna do cause my biggest fear is that someone I know would find it o.o)
I need to start watching Supernatural.
Anyways, so I haven't written a single word these past few days. Instead, I read and watched movies/TV. It has actually been really refreshing and fantastic, but now as I try to write Chapter Thirty-Five again, it's sort of irritating. Like it's almost homework or something.
The thing is, I think I'm taking it all way too seriously. I mean with setting up deadlines for myself, and trying to upload as soon as possible. It sucks the fun out of writing. Yes, I wanna get this book done, but I want to get it done on my terms.
So if it doesn't get finished till post-Band Camp, so be it. Life happens. I'm sort of a dreamer, I keep thinking that once I get this done and start working on UP's redraft I'll get published right away and all this stuff.
But, now I'm trying to be more realistic about it all. My writing isn't the greatest, and I have a lot to learn.
Also, I think part of my reluctance to write is also that I've written almost six books and they've all been fantasy. Which frustrates me. It didn't hit me until the other day cause they all seemed so different, but they are all of the same genre. Different sub-genres maybe, but still fantasy.
& part of the frustration is that every time I want to write something different, no one wants me too.
& then I keep getting ask suggestions that I should write more Urban Fantasy (like what is ID guys?) & then someone told me to write another sci-fi...but by myself.
The by myself stuff makes me laugh. But I meanme and Asiah's writing clashes so much, it's not even funny Circuited didn't totally work out anyway.
But I don't get it. & staring at my profile makes me sad cause literally the only story that isn't fantasy is Band Camp, so I'm starting to understand why people think I should "stick" to it, but it infuriates me.
I mean I write what I want anyway. Like I don't think I actually take into consideration what the fans really want. If I did, Muffy and Scott probably would have done the deed about twelve times by this point in the book.
I still wonder, if I didn't write fantasy, would people still read? Like if you actually explored my blog, you know that my next three books are: Sci-fi, Chick Lit, and Paranormal.
So I finally get to take a break from fantasy. Though the Paranormal is arguably fantasy (as in it is, but I'm tagging it as paranormal).
This realization has made it really difficult to get back into it. I just feel like I want to move on and start something else. The idea of writing isn't even appealing to me. I really want to write something, but I have no ideas of what I want for just a simple one-shot.
The problem is that I don't know what I want. I need to take a break from fantasy, and just write something carefree. Except lol I never write light, carefree things. Not really.
But inspiration is offline at the moment.
The saddest thing is I know exactly what will happen in this chapter. It's all in my mind, but every time I try to focus and write it...I can't.
So two questions:
Anyways, so I haven't written a single word these past few days. Instead, I read and watched movies/TV. It has actually been really refreshing and fantastic, but now as I try to write Chapter Thirty-Five again, it's sort of irritating. Like it's almost homework or something.
The thing is, I think I'm taking it all way too seriously. I mean with setting up deadlines for myself, and trying to upload as soon as possible. It sucks the fun out of writing. Yes, I wanna get this book done, but I want to get it done on my terms.
But, now I'm trying to be more realistic about it all. My writing isn't the greatest, and I have a lot to learn.
Also, I think part of my reluctance to write is also that I've written almost six books and they've all been fantasy. Which frustrates me. It didn't hit me until the other day cause they all seemed so different, but they are all of the same genre. Different sub-genres maybe, but still fantasy.
& part of the frustration is that every time I want to write something different, no one wants me too.
Example:
When I first started posting Band Camp, someone commented on my message board saying that I should stick to fantasy, essentially. (They said 'hardcore fiction' not sure what that means exactly)
and then when I tried to see if anyone wanted me to post my dystopian short story (cause I'm pretentious and automatically assumed everyone would want to read it) one person commented, and that person basically told me to finish my wattpad books.
& then I keep getting ask suggestions that I should write more Urban Fantasy (like what is ID guys?) & then someone told me to write another sci-fi...but by myself.
The by myself stuff makes me laugh. But I mean
But I don't get it. & staring at my profile makes me sad cause literally the only story that isn't fantasy is Band Camp, so I'm starting to understand why people think I should "stick" to it, but it infuriates me.
I mean I write what I want anyway. Like I don't think I actually take into consideration what the fans really want. If I did, Muffy and Scott probably would have done the deed about twelve times by this point in the book.
I still wonder, if I didn't write fantasy, would people still read? Like if you actually explored my blog, you know that my next three books are: Sci-fi, Chick Lit, and Paranormal.
So I finally get to take a break from fantasy. Though the Paranormal is arguably fantasy (as in it is, but I'm tagging it as paranormal).
This realization has made it really difficult to get back into it. I just feel like I want to move on and start something else. The idea of writing isn't even appealing to me. I really want to write something, but I have no ideas of what I want for just a simple one-shot.
The problem is that I don't know what I want. I need to take a break from fantasy, and just write something carefree. Except lol I never write light, carefree things. Not really.
But inspiration is offline at the moment.
The saddest thing is I know exactly what will happen in this chapter. It's all in my mind, but every time I try to focus and write it...I can't.
So two questions:
- Would you read a non-fantasy story of mine?
- Contradicting my earlier statement because I'm a hypocrite, what would you like to see more from me (genre-wise or a specific concept I suppose). If you say fantasy, I will kick you.
If you actually read all of this and answer these questions. You deserve a hug.
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