Importante

Writing is ridiculously stressful.

By itself, I mean. It can be. But it used to be so much fun for me. I love writing, but right now, I can't find myself enjoying it. It just feels like a chore. And I know exactly why. It's because I'm stressing about posting.

And Band Camp is coming up two weeks from today, meaning two hour increments of me dying from lack of food and water and too much sun exposure, leading to little to no time to write.

Then I have speech this week and I'm going to be a junior this year

I've created all these little deadlines for myself, so I haven't really enjoyed my summer. I never caught up on Gossip Girl or Merlin, I'm only starting to catch up on Doctor Who now. Finally finished season two of Once Upon a Time, and I only started reading non-Wattpad books this week. I just finished the fourth? PLL book (Wicked) and am moving on to either my first Sarah Dessen book (I have high expectations) or some other in the stack I got from the library.

So now that I'm just lounging around watching Teen Wolf, falling in love with Stiles, and just reading, doing whatever. You know what?  I feel better. Aside from a nagging sense of guilt that I should write something.

Have I mentioned I love him?

Now, I've made a decision that impacts those of you reading my stories. If you're one of those sticking around for ID, then this doesn't totally affect you, unless you're going to piss me off begging for the third book.

Basically, once I finish ID & eventually WT, I'm not going to post another huge book for a while. 

Meaning that, ID will be finished hopefully before August 20th (school) & WT might be on-and-off till it hopefully is done before 2014. 

After that, I'm not going to post another book for a while.

Does that mean I'm never going to write? No. I'll do however much writing I can this year. If I can fit it in, might even do Nano (doubtful). At the moment, not sure, but I mean I just cleaned my desk and you have no idea how many science notes and graph paper from math my stories have leeched off of.

Does that mean I won't post anything? No.

Confused? Let me explain.

If you go over to the book tabs or to my username project you'll notice all the different shit I'm working on/will work on. 

None of those will be posted for a long time. The side dishes, presumably when they're finito. The other stuff, when I have time to write them

So, again will I post anything? Probably.

I just really enjoy Jack Frost. & Gifs. so...

What will I post? Over the course of the school year, probably just the occasional one-shot maybe a short-short story. Shorter than band camp, just a couple of parts so that I can write it over X-mas break (a.k.a the only real break I have during school)

But if I post a bunch of one-shots, which might be all I have time for, they'll be posted on my second account Incorporeal. 

Once summer starts, I'm going to do Band Camp sized short stories (maybe a little shorter, maybe a little longer) & Band Camp is the size of the first Narnia book so really "short" story is stretching it. 

And seeing as it will be the summer before my senior year

I foresee only one short story being posted. Cause I'll be busy with shit.

Oh my fucking god. I'm going to have to get ready for the ACT and prepare for like real life 

and holy shit

Erm back to the topic, I'll save my hyperventilating for later. 

So posting wise, won't get much posted. I mean if I somehow against all odds finish a book this year, like incognito, I'll post. But otherwise, I wanna take it chill and focus on school so I can get into a good college.

I have three different ideas for short stories (BC sized ones), and a few one-shot ideas. That stuff is the extent of which you'll see this year.

Just thought you should know. I don't want to pressure myself, and I don't want to start something I'm not sure I can finish. I mean I've been working on WT since 2011, so I don't want to get into that again. 

Meanwhile, I still need to edit TNS and rewrite UP, both of which hopefully will get somewhat done Summer 2014, or a little bit this year when I have time.

I'm not superwoman (girl), so if you were looking forward to any of the stories I've shown you sneak peeks of or talked about or have a description of in the Books tab, sorry you're gonna have to wait. Flattered that you want to read 'em though.

This is probably really depressing, especially if you read my blog back in the hiatus months when I talked about all I had planned. But I just want to be able to write for me again, do it with no pressure, and be able to put homework before it without letting down roughly 1860 people.

This does not affect The Imperi's Deception or The Wyvern's Tale at all. Both will get done. ID, hopefully by the end of the summer, and WT hopefully by the end of the year.

However, this does affect future Bellows books and just my writing in general. But for the few of you who like short stuff, this will be good. 

And I think writing short stories will really help me learn how to stick to plots better because in short stories, you're not allowed to wander. 

If you're someone who was looking forward to me posting shit right away, this is your face right now, I'm sure: 

Can we just take a moment to appreciate how attractive he is for an animation?

Anyway, in about two years, maybe a little less...I've finished nearly five books, which isn't too shabby. So maybe it's time for a good real break. Plus, I really wanna get out of Minnesota, so focusing on school without taking a pointless hiatus would be very much appreciated.

You guys are probably some of the most patient fans on Wattpad. Honestly, you were great with the hiatus, and I hope you'll be good with this decision. In the end, it is my decision, and I'm sure some people will unfollow me over it, but I know the vast majority of you guys are awesome and understand that I'm sixteen and tired all the time so...

Gracias.

He's so attractive though. And looks way too similar to one of my main characters it's a bit disturbing.